[He knows the plan didn't work out that way. Knows that NOW. At the time it seemed like a pretty good setup. Play the villain. Hook Chris up with Ashley, let her see just how brave and badass his best bro is when push comes to shove. Let her see everything Josh has already known about Chris that makes him the best person around.
Let everyone see just how protective and sturdy Sam is. Make sure neither of them will miss Josh. That the others can convince them finally to forget about him. That he deserves all of it and more. That they'll take care of those two--those two who deserve all the praise and love and more.]
Course it...
[His eyes go wide when she brushes away his tears as though he's just realized they were there.]
It didn't turn out that way. I couldn't even make you hate me and we weren't even all that close out of everyone in the group.
[It was a good set-up. If they got married, they'd have the weirdest fucking stories for grandkids when it came to 'How I started dating your other grandparent'. So, thanks for that.
Ashley kicks at the ground with the sole of her Converse.]
If it helps, I really wanted to. But I don't hate you. I'm mad at you, really really mad, but I don't hate you.
[Total mission failure. Even at the end, josh is still the only one who hates himself the way he wanted them to. They aren't as bad as his paranoia told him they were. Big shocker there, learning his crazy would lie to him like that.]
So, what now? For you I mean. I got my...not plan exactly. But I'm sorted I guess.
good to know the afterlife has good wifi
[He knows the plan didn't work out that way. Knows that NOW. At the time it seemed like a pretty good setup. Play the villain. Hook Chris up with Ashley, let her see just how brave and badass his best bro is when push comes to shove. Let her see everything Josh has already known about Chris that makes him the best person around.
Let everyone see just how protective and sturdy Sam is. Make sure neither of them will miss Josh. That the others can convince them finally to forget about him. That he deserves all of it and more. That they'll take care of those two--those two who deserve all the praise and love and more.]
Course it...
[His eyes go wide when she brushes away his tears as though he's just realized they were there.]
It didn't turn out that way. I couldn't even make you hate me and we weren't even all that close out of everyone in the group.
oh yeah
Ashley kicks at the ground with the sole of her Converse.]
If it helps, I really wanted to. But I don't hate you. I'm mad at you, really really mad, but I don't hate you.
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[Total mission failure. Even at the end, josh is still the only one who hates himself the way he wanted them to. They aren't as bad as his paranoia told him they were. Big shocker there, learning his crazy would lie to him like that.]
So, what now? For you I mean. I got my...not plan exactly. But I'm sorted I guess.
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Well... Chris and I are together. For real. So there's that. I don't know, other than that.