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[spiritmastered]

I can't stop thinking... what if?

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[unfollowing]

Just because something's a given doesn't mean you stop thinking about what if.

[She rolls her eyes, but mostly to hide the fact that she's actively thinking back to that night. She didn't stop the prank because she was too insecure to let Hannah be Hannah or just go talk to her. Or yell at her, more like. Of all the times for Emily to hide behind her friends, that was the worst one to go with.]

Although, since you brought it up, you know exactly what would've happened if Mike pulled the trigger.

[B i t c h.]

What even made you ask this fucking question.

[spiritmastered]

I do think about it. I think about it a lot.

[Another wince. Maybe Emily should just slap her again and get it over with.] He didn't. I'm sorry. I saw it and- what if those things were like zombies? My nerves were shot-

these aren't good excuses and everything I say is just going to make you hate me more. I'm not... brave like you are.

I just wanted to know. We didn't all sit down and share our experiences. I mean... Chris almost shot me. And almost had me sawed in half... [The gun was filled with blanks but that saw!]

I guess it doesn't matter. You're going to hate me no matter what I say. I probably deserve it.