Some things are easier to remember when you've suffered great losses, unfortunately. If it's not too personal, can I ask what losses you've suffered? They seem to have really impacted you...

(ooc: *hugs* I know how you feel. other than the Mondays off, my current schedule is all over the damned place. 7:00am-4:00pm, 2:00pm-11:00pm, anywhere in between... I really hate it, lol)